The crumbling mold
2009-09-28 - 2:35 p.m.

I haven't eaten yet today, and I'm not really hungry.

It's cold and windy out, and the window was open all night, so I was pretty much freezing. I closed the window when I got up, but when Eric came back from class, he opened it again. Wtf.

I am now pretty much officially on lexapro. I haven't noticed any side-affects, which is good, but I haven't noticed any benefits still either.

I was driving back from Colin's last night and crying again because I didn't want to go back.

Eric was gone for the weekend again, and I'm hoping now that he's figured out that he has nothing to do while he's here aside from sit at his computer, that he makes going home a weekly thing.

Colin's parents dropped him and his sister off here on Saturday because they were on their way to some meeting in Rockford, and then we drove back to Chicago, which took forever.
Went to a party that night, and it was nice to see some of the boys.
I got a little drunk, and I felt like I needed it.

Oh - and I used my age privileges for the first time on Friday. We went to Ruby Tuesday and I ordered a Ruby Relaxer. I can't remember what was in it, but it was good. And then later that night Joe and I went to the liquor store to get stuff for a party at Lauren Powell's house, and I bought a six-pack of watermelon Smirnoff Ice.

Sunday we sat around and did nothing for most of the day. Had good shower sex and watched a lot of 3rd Rock From The Sun, which I don't really like, but I don't really mind it either. Colin's parents got back around 4:30, and then we went to dinner at Friendship Chinese. They left after dinner, and Colin and I only had a little time before I had to leave.
And I did not want to come back.

I don't think the gods wanted me to either, because I got lost within five minutes of leaving, and it took about a half hour to get me back on the right road. Fucking road construction.

I didn't have class this morning again because Kristin, our Alexander teacher, has been in the hospital. We don't really know what's going on, but we know that it's related to her cancer. So I've had one Alexander class all semester.

I skipped bio. I'm obviously going to skip mythology. I'm thinking about skipping voice lab, but I'll probably go.

I just want to quit now.

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