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2009-09-13 - 9:30 p.m.

Sunday, September 13, 2009 12:53PM

Diaryland is apparently down at the moment, so I’m sitting here writing in Word and listening to Mahler. Shocking, I know.

Yesterday a spontaneous trip to the city happened, and not entirely in a good way. Amalia told me she was driving, and so I was ok, but what she meant was that she was driving to the train station. Thankfully the train from Elburn to Chicago is only five dollars, but me being taken by surprise on trip plans is not usually a good thing.
The train was freezing on the way there, and on the way back, and it took so long to actually get to the city. It would’ve been faster and probably cheaper to have just driven there.

Then we arrived and had no plan. Which, again, kinda freaked me out. We wandered about downtown and eventually into a Sears because Amalia had to pee, and Colin met us there. After we left Sears, we wandered about some more, and ended up in Millennium Park. We walked past the faces, and went to go see the big silver bean, and Coco took some pictures of us being all cute.

Started wandering again, but this time with the purpose of finding food. We ended up at this Italian cafe at Colin’s suggestion, and after that had to really decide what we were going to do. Ben and Mitchell wanted to go see their friends at DePaul, and Amalia wanted to see her friend Max. To do this, we all needed to get on the red line, which was freaking me the fuck out because I didn’t know how it worked, and I’d never been on the sub system before, and of course how money was going to factor in...All that, and Colin couldn’t come with us.
There was the option of me just staying with Colin and going to Ron’s and coming back today, but I thought it was all too up-in-the-air, so I just went with Amalia and Zack. I was also thinking of the work I need to get done today, but I really really wanted to stay there with him. But then I got to have him for a few unexpected hours, so that was really nice.

When we got down into the station and there were the card machines, and I understood how everything works more, I felt a little more comfortable, but I still wanted to be with Colin.

We rode the red line to Fullerton, split up there, and Zack, Amalia, and I met up with her friend Max. We walked over to his place where he and a few of his friends were getting baked, and then we walked to this place called Starfruit, which is sort of like Coldstone in a way with all the toppings, but rather than ice cream it’s this frozen-yogurtish stuff called Kefir. It was relatively expensive I though, but it’s apparently super healthy for you, and it was good, so whatev.

We decided to book it back to the train station after that, mainly because we didn’t entirely know where we were going, and we wanted to make sure we had enough time to fuck up our directions and still get on the train.

The trip was really just kind of nerve-racking overall. Comfy cuddly moments with Colin, but other than that...not exactly fun.

Got back to my room at basically 3, and I was sort of pissed to see that Eric was still up with the damn door open. I didn’t say anything, as usual, and just got ready for bed. He left the room before I came back from the bathroom, so when I got back I closed the door, put on Mozart (Cº Piano n°23-2), and passed out.

And now today I need to study, make a run to Walgreen’s, and probably eat eventually.

In regards to being sick, I think I’m getting better, but it’s not happening as fast as I would like.

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Well I got hair dye today, and my roots are just as yellow as my tips, so it looks weird right now, but it’ll be better in a few days.

I feel like every day I get closer to leaving this place. I really don’t know if I ever really would, because it would quite probably ruin everything. But I’m really just losing it. Losing.
I’m freaking out again right now. I want to get in the car and drive to Colin. I want to run to safety. Run. Run. Run.

I had a dream last night where I knew the answer to everyone else’s question but my own. It was supposed to be a Shakespeare quote, that had ‘Seelie’ in it, and it took me a few minutes to realize that it was about the Seelie Court. And everyone laughed at me because it took me time to figure it out.

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