BLC
2009-07-22 - 10:41 p.m.

I get rash and hasty when I'm really lonely. And then tend to regret it later.

School starts in about a month, and like always, I'm scared. Obviously less scared than I was last summer, but I still can't register for classes, and I still have no idea where the hell I'm living. We're trying to get a single room, but it's not working out so well. The NIU online system is just fucking awful. What's going on now is that my doctor has to fill out this form basically saying that I have a social anxiety disorder and deserve my own room.
Which, you know, is true...I can't be on medication 24 hours a day...

I should take some now, though, because I'm starting to freak myself out worrying about stuff.

I've seen D once. I've seen Joe once.
And I'm not okay with that.
I've also only been to the beach once, but going to the beach in ER is just...not so pleasant. Mainly because your bound to know at least five people there, but they aren't anyone you wanted to see, and you feel awkward. Especially when you're in a tiny pair of Marc Jacobs trunks.

I tried drawing a bit today, but couldn't stay focused. That's been happening a lot lately. I also have little to no inspiration. Or I give up up within a few minutes of trying to create something.
I also really wish I knew how to use Corel Painter better. A digital art class?

The edge of the laptop is irritating my wrists, so I'm gonna stop now.

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