You'll be the hero
2008-12-07 - 2:07 a.m.

Tomorrow (or today, rather) is the closing for our show, and it's a relief.
Barely anyone comes, so I don't really care.

I wonder if being on anti-depressants will actually give me some motivation.
Because I never really want to do anything. I want to sit here at the computer and watch stuff. Or read. I don't ever want to have to do anything.
I don't want to go to school.
I don't want to go to a job.
I just want free time all the time.
And I want to be taken care of.

And I really don't let go of things that have hurt me.
Stubbornness and bitterness.
In that way I feel like Sweeney. "He never forgot
and he never forgave."

Uhg, I'm so unhappy.

And I have so many regrets.

And I want to get away from everything.
Get away, get away, run away.

(The smoke in your eyes smothers the clouds in my chest.)

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