From where we're all born
2008-09-30 - 10:58 p.m.

Emotionally, I'm not doing well.

I feel so fragile, like anything could just set me off and make me start crying.

I haven't really eaten much in the past five days. A bunch of chocolate, but not much else.

I skipped dance yesterday, and I don't want to go tomorrow either. I don't really want to go to any of my classes anymore.

I finally got my new tablet, and it works really well, and I actually might be able to sell my old one to another girl in the dorm, so that's nice.
I've been trying to get acquainted with Corel Painter, but I'm finding myself just wanting openCanvas back. But openCanvas doesn't run on macs. uhg. I haven't drawn in photoshop yet.
I've been working on a pic of Neptune, and I'm trying way too hard and over-working it.

I really miss talking to Jeff.
He was in my dream the other night.

I need some loving arms.

I saw Matt on my way to Gately's class, and I wanted a hug, but I just waved because I felt awkward about going up to him and asking for one. Also because I might've started sobbing.
He told me he liked my coat, though.
The auburnish corduroy one Dana gave me.
It's my favorite.

Money may not be able to buy happiness, but it can certainly buy a bunch of pretty things that would make me at least slightly happy.
I'm a very material person.

I really wish I didn't have a fucking roommate right now so I wouldn't feel self-conscious about curling up and crying. I just don't want a roommate at all.
I wish I could have a single.

Wish wish wish want want want.
I'm really selfish.

Fuck I hate this.

It's really cold in here. It kinda feels like my room at home during winter. My hands are freezing.

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