I am good enough.
2010-02-02 - 10:53 p.m.

My weekend in Chicago went well, aside from the hangover I had on Saturday. My first hangover ever.
Colin and I got really drunk on Friday night, and I didn't sleep very well, and just felt miserable on Saturday. I actually had more than the normal hangover symptoms, including a fever for most of the day. I was starting to think I was getting really sick.

We watched AbFab the majority of the weekend.

I got to skype with Alex (it's still really hard to call him that) twice on Saturday on Colin's MacBook, which was really nice. It's weird to think he's been in Korea less than two months.

I did get lonely and sad while I was there, though. Even when Colin was around.

You know what I realized on the way home from rehearsal tonight? I didn't even think about January 7th this year. It didn't even cross my mind. That's the first time that's happened since Ian died. Progress.

I wish I would legitimately journal more. And WRITE more. I've been writing in the same journal since 2007. Yeah. I've been only making about an entry a month. I dunno. It sits there on the table, always in my sight-line, but I never do anything about it.

I'm feeling pretty good and confident about my audition. To the point actually where I think Western would be stupid to not put me on the wait list, if not into the program. At least this time if I don't get in, it won't be because I didn't have a good audition.

I have a dance lesson on Thursday, and I'm kind of excited about that, and trying to be as positive as possible about the dance aspect, and thinking about just giving it my all and showing my enthusiasm. And radiating the shit out of it.

I'll just be radiating the entire audition. Sending my energy out and letting them receive it. ...also sending out PICK MEEEEEEEEEE!

I know I can do this. I can.

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